_my love for you;

Farewell Aunty Jenny =~(

Friday, November 28, 2008

It's such a busy week. One cannot imagine the stress i'm in as well as the tediousness of the work i'm doing. I feel so drained out. Physically strain is no way closer than emotional drain. I can't understand why i'm given this job when those i have on hand are no way getting done.

Only the 2 people who worked with me can understand the tremendous stress i'm going through. I feel so deprived of everything. Being locked up in that room and simply getting no where. Yesterday was an achievment but today was slow. Tomorrow will be stress-er because the expectation is so high. Sometimes being in the middle isn't a good idea. I'm expected to be faster than the the junior and be able to assist my senior. The only thing in my mind for me to fight on is that i'm better off than my senior who is under worst stress than i am. And honestly, we or myself ain't doing anything to really ease the load off him.

I'm doing my best...but sometimes i doubt myself. I doubt my work. But ack...don't want to think about it right now. Tomorrow is Saturday yet i'm required to go back to work. Sigh...wish things could be different.

Which also reminds me that the aunty i was speaking about in the previous post has left and tomorrow's her funeral but i'm unable to attend due to work commitments. Maybe it's a good thing. I will always have the happier version of her in my memory.

Well this is a message for her, "Aunty, thanks for everything you have done for my mother and me. Having known you in my life is a blessing because i have another person to dote on me. Though you have left and my wish to have you attend my wedding went along with you. But i know when the day comes, you will be there as well. May you rest in peace and continue your journey to the afterlife. A person as nice as you will receive many blessings. I'm sorry that i won't be able to attend the funeral tomorrow and sending you off on your final journey on earth. But i know you will understand. Farewell le!"

Crying as i write this
The music on the radio seems so apt
Life's journey is short
And with that you left your mark in us
Now the story of your life has ended
But your legacy will outlive you forever
The little things you've done
The many words that you've spoken
The little touches you left behind
Will always impact us in one way or another
And now i bid you farewell
Leave in peace knowing that you've lived a full life

-Sign Off @ 10:33 PM :)